Aisya's View Of Life

Assalamualaikum, Entri kali ini hanya untuk meluahkan rasa ketidakselesaan dalam diri yang disebabkan oleh berita2 yang kian menyendatkan otak. Waduh2~!!! Sebelum ni Tunisia, sekarang dah ke Mesir lepas ni negara mana lagi??? Ada ura2 mengatakan Jordon pulak ... Kenapakah??? Bencana alam sekaligus ngan bencana yang diciptakan oleh manusia.  Kita berbanjir di sini, mereka berusuhan di sana. Nak kata apa yea, ujiankah? Balakah? Peringatankah? Ramai jugak student Malaysia dekat Mesir tu yea (11,000 orang) ... Tak sangka pulak seramai tu... Macam manalah keadaan diorang sekarang ni? Jiran aku sorang ada dekat sana, baru je pergi. Dalam dok soseh2 nak blaja sampai PHD kat sana, sekali dah jadi macam ni ... =| Tak dapat nak kata apa. Tadi berita, ada pelajar Malaysia di Rusia, datang cuti2 kat Mesir tersangkut sudah di Mesir dan status mereka ketika ini masih tidak diketahui. Haiyo~!!! Talian telefon, internet, semua alat komunikasi dan untuk berhubung disekat. Banduan seramai 500...

Proudly announcing!!! I'm 25, SiNgLe (not sure if i ever proud of it anymore), Unemployed ... ermmm, dats all i guess (Tak cukup worst lagi ke tu???) Yea, typical advice - "ada yang lagi teruk daripada kau, kau tau tak!???" (sambil hentak2 dengan kuali) Argh, life is weird - once you have it all in front of you, once it all just slip away from the palm of your hand ... Huh! cakap cam le dah dapat semua di atas (HAHAHAHAH - gelak kat diri sendiri) Alright, just recently i've been missing lots of thing yang aku penah buat - Aku rindu nak bersukan, aku rindu nak main touch rugby, nak jog ngan kengkawan aku petang2 sambil scouting cute guys (haaaaa~ ..............) okay, back! =p ... I miss all of those thing ... Speaking about getting a job in Penang, I don't know why I JUST CAN'T FIND A JOB HERE! either im not good enough or they just don't need any new people. I have received 3 calls from Intel and none from USM and also KPJ Healthcare Penang ... I don...

I wont say much ... I like him but i'm not sure if i love him ... So, why should i care if he somehow suddenly have someone special in his life ... It's not like both of us ever had a conversation ermmm, a real one i mean ... So, why should him having a relationship with someone else bother me, right? right? right? So, we cool!

I don’t know how my love story going to begin because as far as I concern I haven’t find anyone yet and it’s a heart crashing. Maybe I might end up with someone’s choices and nothing more I can do except to accept it as I lose hope to keep searching anymore. Finally, I had no control over something I ever wanted in my life. Someone I can call a friend, a lover and a husband! I always want it to be beautiful - from the way we met to the day we approach each other. I want to have those special moments like others while we dating. When we together feels like we complete each other. We share our problems – Light up each others life. We fight but still we know how to control our anger – we console back each other. We lost whenever we keep that anger too long in ourselves – the completeness breaks. We learn to search for our mistake instead of others. Believing is the serenity of our love. I’ll take you as an angel to guide and protect me and you always there – No Doubt! and you will always ...

Melayan perasaan ni syok tapi meletihkan ... but take a listen to this song, pretty nice song ... come the lyric first Brandy feat Ne-yo => too little too late How many times did I ask 'why are you with him'? How many times did I beg you to run away? How many times did he tell you it won't happen again? And how many times did it happen the very next day? And now I'm asking why didn't you listen to me? Why didn't I do something, Though you said 'please just let it be'? Why did I let him take you from me? The choices we make, to right the mistakes. Too little too late. What did I say the very first time it happened? I said where is he now and what do you want me to do? Why did you tell me no, why were you protecting him? When all I was trying to do, was protect you. And now I'm asking why didn't you listen to me? Why didn't I do something, Though you said 'please just let it be'? Why did I let him take you from me? The choices we mak...

It's hard to explain Inherently it's just always been strange Neither here nor there Always somewhat out of place everywhere Ambiguous Without a sense of belonging to touch Somewhere halfway Feeling there's no one completely the same Standing alone Eager to just Believe it's good enough to be what You really are But in your heart Uncertainty forever lies And you'll always be Somewhere on the Outside Early on, you face The realization you don't have a space Where you fit in And recognize you Were born to exist Standing alone Eager to just Believe it's good enough to be what You really are But in your heart Uncertainty forever lies And you'll always be Somewhere on the Outside And it's hard...And it's hard...And it's hard Irreversibly Falling in between And it's hard...And it's hard To be understood As you are...As you are Oh, and God knows That you're standing on your own Blind and unguided Into a world divided You're thrown Wh...

Persoalannya Kenapa bila kita rasa dekat dengan seseorang tiba-tiba dia menjauh? Kenapa bila kita tersayang seseorang ada sebahagian hati yang menghalang dan ada sebahagian lagi yang menyokong? Kenapa bila cinta tu berputik dalam jiwa tiba-tiba hubungan tu jadi sukar? Kenapa bila kita cuba meninggalkan orang yang kita 'ter'sayang hati kita rasa kosong? Walhal kita bukannya beria-ia sangat pun. Kenapa bila persahabatan bertukar kepada sesuatu yang lebih serius hubungan jadi hambar? Kenapa kita mesti melarikan diri dan menyorokkan diri bila kita 'ter'sayang seseorang tu? Susah sangat ke nak luahkan? Kenapa mesti ambil kisah apa orang lain fikir? Dah tak boleh nak berfikir sendiri ke? Kenapa setiap kali kecewa kita akan menyalahkan diri sendiri dan rasa diri kita yang bersalah? Kenapa cepat sangat ambil keputusan melulu, bila dengar perkhabaran yang tak baik tentang seseorang yang baru kita nak dekat? Kenapa? Kenapa dan kenapa? Kalau ada yang nak tamba...

Sometimes, life is unfair to me WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~! Dah tu je nak cakap untuk entry kali ni

Today is a very lame day... Im so damn tired! and feeling so helpless right now... I just finished drawing the ERD for my system and have to start drawing on DFD next ... Feeling totally low drawing these stuff...sigh~! I need a HOLIDAY !!!! One fine + perfect holiday...by the beach maybe...on an island... Need to clean up all those viruses which have been stuck in my body...Need to come back clean!

Sampai ofis lewat dari kebiasaannya.... Aku diberi kunci ofis sebab kakak yg selalu masuk awal tu ada kursus... Renovation masih dijalankan....Semalam je dah membingitkan telinga dengan kerja memecahkan dinding untuk buat pintu... Hari ni aku tak tau nak ada sound apa lagi... Akibat terlopong (tertutup ngan plastik yang ntah ar aku tak tau apekah namanya...hehe), once aku buka je pintu maka berterbangan nyamuk-nyamuk... Agak sengal gakla...darah aku manis (kihkih) maka nyamuk nih berebut2 nak gigit aku... Masalah kedua... tempat aku laks dah tak de sebab al maklum duk kat kaunter je...Jadi akses untuk melalui kaunterlah yang dibuat tu, so tempat aku pun telah diketepikan wat sementara waktu...So, aku tumpang tempat orang lain...yang best aku pilih tempat yang paling tersorok...muahahahahahaa(gelak jahat) Masalah ketiga.... Aku tak dapat buat lagi carian melalui date and camne nak bagi rekod yang terpapar hanya akan terpapar 10 rekod per page...Disebabkan masa yang tinggal lagi beberapa...

Post chenta kita kali ini akan membawakan kisah suka-duka dunia perchentaan aku....wah~! syahdunyew~! Well, i started my lurve life when i was in standard 3 (yes, aku sangat gatai!) but it's not like im having them all the time. Its juz the feeling towards another gender started to develop in me...So, my first boy i attracted to name Shahril....dia tu kawan sepermainan aku, ntah macam mana leh terjatuh chenta ngan dia....dahla main bola sekali....akakakaka...(and yes, aku mmg sgt jantan masa kecik2....sgt tidak disukai oleh makcik2 ku sbb aku tak mcm anak2 perempuan mereka yang ayu sopan, duduk kat dapur...aku suka pecahkan barang!!! weeeee~ aku suka kehidupan aku masa kecik2...enuff said!) So, i started to develop a lil kinda feeling towards this fwen of mine and i can see his discomfort...huahuahua...but then, we changed school and i never saw him again....dah jadi bapak org pe gamaknyew sekang....hehehe =P and then, came Akram....and i dun remember who else...all, totally physic...

I hate myself... I dunno la, trauma masa sekolah dulu wat aku cam takut nak approach guy yang aku suka...and its like stuck wit me till today... Yesterday, I was walking right beside dis guy but i dun noe why i cant even look at him and say juz a simple "hye" ... Very stressful when i think about it... Itu antara jarak yang paling dekat aku ngan dia setakat nih! Kepala aku ni berat gilew nak pandang dia ke...aku tunduk jew cam besa mengadap trek yang berutu tuh...I think I'm not gonna make it...I juz cant do it...No matter how hard I try to push myself still I got dat "fear" coming over me everytime I try to approach someone I admire... So, I guess I juz let it go as usual...harhar...sedey sebenarnye...sigh~! I think it'll be great if im not seeing him for this time being...yeah, to get him out of my system...At least, I can go back to where I was...I actually had pulled this guy out of me but hurm, i bumped to him back and it happened last month kan...so...